wow i havent update this journal for a long time.. so to just start off i miss allmy friends from lemoore. nothing is going to replace you guys in my heart. and for everyone eles. i love everyone im not a person to hate only if u get me really mad. but i am a really funny person.. yes i used to cut so i dont care.. yes i do have scars from all of my cut marks. that dosent mean im a bad person. i always listen to people even if im having a bad day. i also lost alot of my good friends. i had one friend ended his life real soon. even though i still cry at night becuase i could have stop him but i didnt. i have should have try hader. i care about him still. he still in my heart no matter what.go ahead and call me a freak just to let you know i wont care what u say now. im my own person. i do know i can be a jerk some times. come on dont gett mad. im always here. and come on im not im just me.....